Do we have a choice in life all the time?

You never get to choose.
You follow the way your boss works.....
You listen to your mom and dad although you don't feel the way they feel....
You cry out even when you want to hold them so badly......
You still hang out even you know it's not right.....
You still drink when you know your body cannot take it anymore......
You still smoke when you know your lung will become black.......
You still wake up in the morning, early even you know how much you want to skip working......
You still eat the usual amount even you know your jeans can't fit anymore.....
You still swipe even you are sill carrying unecessary debts.....
You still call or text even you know clearly he belongs to someone else.....
You still not go to sleep even your body has sent you many red signals.....
You still live in the past even you pretend to enjoy what you have now and do not care about the past.........

We always have a choice. But do we always utilise the apportunity?
Nope. Then we messed up.
Then we try. Try to move on.
If we fail, we pretend we're happy.
If we success, we won't even remember.

And.....I have a choice, still.
So, let's make a right choice, at least once, at least for once in my lifetime.

Cambodia (delayed 1)

A late.....delayed post......the 1st one...
A Tea House in Cambodia....
Very comfortable.....
That was really a very lazy
afternoon.
Lazy and cosy.....

The Restaurant in the new shopping mall in Cambodia..........

A mixture of sushis and shabu-shabu....

It feels like the crossover of
Johnny's and Sakae Sushi.

Work and Home at Cambodia............

The Limkokwing

Cambodia campus.........

When everybody's at work..........

When everybody's at home..........

Though they're the same people you see more than 20 hours.........(only in Limkokwing)

but I still love them althought it sucks sometimes at work.........

hehe......

It's all about love.....although u've moved on

It’s all about love.
Stay. Is to keep your love one.
Leave. Is to protect your love one.
When I thought I could stay, I was asked to leave.
When I was leaving, no one understood how much I wanted to stay.
During the period after I left, I wanted to turn back.
Passed the period of thinking of turning back, I never look back.
It’s love that makes one fall, fall devastatingly.
It’s love that brings one back, back toughly.

Leave when you can, not when asked to.
Stay when you can, not when asked to.
To keep yourself being loved by your own.
Not to keep your love one to keep loving you.
We believe if one really loves another one, nothing can ever change the love.

In the final chapter of the book, the happy ending is all up to own precision.
Buy our own time, use our own creativity to change things that we don’t want to, but have to.
When we’ve tried our best in all, nothing can be blamed.
No one can blame us too.

Just go ahead with our instinct, and we’ll get what we deserve to get.
And it’ll all be just about love again that keeps us moving till the end.
It’s all about love.

Dark secrets.....

Dark secrets.......everyone has their own dark secrets......definitely there’ll be at least one.....


For me, I have a number of them.....some I keep for good reasons.....the others...hmmm.....not really that bad.......but dark secrets have got to be something bad I suppose......


Sometimes when I walk around.....it doesn’t matter in KL (where I work), in Ipoh (my hometown) or in Cambodia (for work trip) now.......I see people passing by, alone, in pairs, in groups......carrying the dark secrets with them.....as well as for me.....so it’s we, not them.......do we all have the right to judge each other?


In my view, I think the first question is............why don’t we support each other instead of judging each other?
Supporting each other makes everybody stronger.....on the other hand, by judging each other.....it’s only the matter of time of witnessing who fails faster.......Hence, why can’t we all show some support?


That’s where the dark secrets come in......it’s all because of the dark secrets we have deep down inside.....when one have something to hide, he or she will not reveal......when one doesn’t reveal........there’ll be no support......
And......we are also afraid that people will use the opportunity to bring us down..........once secrets divulged....and that’s where trust comes in......no support equals to no trust.......and these all lead to the fragile relationships now.....in all kinds of love.....your soul mate....your family.....your friends....your colleagues....even your pets.


Do we all have to continue suffering from the rat race which is getting worse nowadays?
Or.....should we start trusting each other to make the world a better place to live tomorrow?


I admit I am part of the contribution to the rat race.......but how come I don’t stop? Probably because I don’t want to feel isolated.....I don’t dare to be the outcast....or actually I have never make up my mind to make any changes.....


Confused.........but to comfort myself.....I think that’s the reason why I write this post.....maybe to remind myself or to aware the others.....or maybe just to pretend to be a reminder while I can put myself out of the picture....but at least I’m not one of the office zombies out there.....maybe this post will not be effective at all to the zombies especially.....but the minimum effect I try to create is to stop those at the same stage as I do to turn into a zombie.......


I don’t have to the courage and privilege to pull myself out of the rat race yet......but I do limit myself in the involvement......I will reduce......and reduce.....and reduce.....gently.....slowly.....when the time I find my pathway to finally settle down.......that’s the time I leave the rat race.

More places.......for Cambodia

The Villa......the house I stay in Cambodia

The bars n restuarant down the street from the Villa.........

Liquid bar as well..........

Angkor Beer

-The national beer for Cambodia

'Tuk Tuk'

The office......Limkokwing Cambodia.........small but cosy..........

Less politics..........happier......

The Lounge........the usual Saturday hang-out spot...............

It's my day.....wateva I wan.........

My day.....this post is about my day......
one of my nicest mood days......
no blues.....no sobs........
it's my day.....where sadness goes away.....
dreams come apart.......
drink as much of my favourite drinks as I can......
eat as much as I wan.....
share pleasure moments as much as I have......
care people who love me and I love as much as I care......
listen to things as much as I can take.....
buy stuff I've been longing to buy as much as I can afford.....
sleep as late as I feel like.......
perfect day.....

and.....at the same nite......it's winter warmers......
mixed fruits mocktail......blueberry milk tea.......
in one day........all my favourite spots.....
one fine day........wif lovable food and drinks......
lovable people.....lovable mood.......

after a stupidly filled-up stomach in dae jang gim,

it's Mcd bfaz to start another day.....!!!

Mcd.....Mcd.......esp the bfaz......always always

my favourite.....eventhough they raised their prices

like a thousand times

dae jang gim korean bbq at puchong.....

always on my list......

n always haf to come wif soju.....

another favourite starter----marinated spinach

manirated clams.....one of my favourites
korean cuisine starters........